Smirking Sun

This kind of sadness
Curls up in all the hollow
Coves of the barren carcass
Of a beach that is your comfort
Your beach
Waves pounding away, the melodic
Rhythm of erosion,
Constant
You were a hurricane, you fed off the warm waters
Like an animal
Finding solace in surrender,
You threw your body off the cliff face
Just to feel the splash
Waves encompassing the hollow bones of your grief
You swam
Until your legs ceased motion with abrupt
Confusion
You could just see the shore
But you sank, deep deep down
Staring up at the smile
Curved into the water by the sun
Smirking
But now the seaweed was holding on to your
Ankles and your hair was
Full of sand and piranhas
Your skin pruned and
Dissolved, solubility in the
Way you gave in to
Disintegration
You think too much
You think maybe there's a life raft out there for me
You wait and you sink and
You remember hurricanes
And cliff faces
You only wanted to test the water
You think too much
You dream too often of the smirking sun and you ache
For completion, a resolve
To the loneliness
Enveloping you
You're sinking