Spirit Day

There’s a bursting inside me sourced from the supernova of

Your eyes and I know I can’t push you away any longer you

Persist

Permit

Me to accept myself even though I have hushed it away for the past seventeen years

And by now I am bursting

I am bursting

I am bursting like the bubbles of truth that bubble and swell up inside of me

Swell with the lies and the truths and the secrets

Because I am only half of myself when I am not with you and that has to mean something

It has to mean something more than a

Girl crush girl friend I know that I love you

But we collide and we melt and we burst and we break

And we are at different stages different steps

Of our lives just trying blindly to put the pieces back together

That we lost when we were so small and I am trying to tell you

To tell you all I am trying

To find my voice to find my hands

To find the part of me that i lost somewhere along the way but I am saying it now

In this jumble of words that is spewing from my fingertips I am telling you now

I am telling you now

I am not inhumane I am not a freak I am not

I am not what goes bump under your bed I am the same

But I am different

I have imperfections that make me perfect but if loving a girl is an imperfection

Then I have lost all faith in humanity and I am glad

I am glad that I live in a community that makes me unafraid to say this

To get this out to set this free

I am thankful

That even though some of you might hate me for this the majority still love me

Like you

And you

And you

You have all helped me to push these words out on this day

On this Spirit Day when people come out of their figurative closets and into the sunlight

I tilt my face up to the rays

Because I am unafraid

I am whole now

I have found the parts of me that were lost in the night and

I found them in the stars of your eyes

I have spoken

And I hope you will speak